The Lord gives and takes away...
Why is this so hard to understand sometimes and so hard to accept?
Some people focus on the give, and when they sing this or think about it they are filled with thankfulness or prayerful desire, where as some focus on the take and try really hard to still bless the name of God in their pain...maybe most have been in all of these places at different times or together at the same time.
I have thought on this statement mostly in terms of the giving and trying to understand why God sometimes gives and sometimes does not give (different than take away). I mean why doesn't He give in the first place? Then one day I realized He chooses to give or not give(according to His plan) and He chooses to take away or not take away (according to His plan). It's not one or the other, its give / not give AND take away / not take away in his timing...Oh, ok then.
This still leaves questions however, like "But why God would you give or not give, take away or not take away?" becuase "I want that" or "I had that and want it back" or "please take this from me"
(This Job series in church is really making me think)
As I was singing these words today, "you give and take away" I was struck with a new thought or God whispered something new (probably the latter),
It went something like this:
"LET ME GIVE AND TAKE AWAY ALREADY!!!!"
It ceased striving to be: "ok Lord I will accept that you are choosing to give this to me now or not give this to me now...i guess...
And it was more of a whisper than a yell.
Let ME....He said. Accept my giving, Accept my taking, Accept Me for Me, because I AM.
The end of a great old poem says:
So would I love thee dearest Lord
And in thy prasie will sing
Soley because Thou art my God
And my most gracious King
Why is this so hard to understand sometimes and so hard to accept?
Some people focus on the give, and when they sing this or think about it they are filled with thankfulness or prayerful desire, where as some focus on the take and try really hard to still bless the name of God in their pain...maybe most have been in all of these places at different times or together at the same time.
I have thought on this statement mostly in terms of the giving and trying to understand why God sometimes gives and sometimes does not give (different than take away). I mean why doesn't He give in the first place? Then one day I realized He chooses to give or not give(according to His plan) and He chooses to take away or not take away (according to His plan). It's not one or the other, its give / not give AND take away / not take away in his timing...Oh, ok then.
This still leaves questions however, like "But why God would you give or not give, take away or not take away?" becuase "I want that" or "I had that and want it back" or "please take this from me"
(This Job series in church is really making me think)
As I was singing these words today, "you give and take away" I was struck with a new thought or God whispered something new (probably the latter),
It went something like this:
"LET ME GIVE AND TAKE AWAY ALREADY!!!!"
It ceased striving to be: "ok Lord I will accept that you are choosing to give this to me now or not give this to me now...i guess...
And it was more of a whisper than a yell.
Let ME....He said. Accept my giving, Accept my taking, Accept Me for Me, because I AM.
The end of a great old poem says:
So would I love thee dearest Lord
And in thy prasie will sing
Soley because Thou art my God
And my most gracious King
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